How stupid i am sitting here waiting for you to online. I miss you so much its unbelievable… and its hurting me so much to know that you dont even want to talk to me anymore. I just looked up to the stars and crying myself out, seems like everything reminds me of you now.
Remember when i told you i will never want to go back to you? because i know i went too far?
i lied. i wish i could go back to your place, i wish at stars to give me time travel and undo all of what i did.
But dont worry, i know, i cant.
i dont learn much from what happened except that i have been unbelievably stupid to let go my real love. i dont know myself anymore. i lost faith. i drink, i smoke, and i get high from weed most of the time. One thought of you just now makes me realised how much of a dead person i am. I dont feel like living and I cant take it anymore, so its a promise to myself to forget about all this, about you and us.
i will have to move on now, just like what you did.
i will have to smile like you in this picture, just like your smile now. thats a true happiness for me..
goodbye.
:’)
